i'm not happy

I'm not happy...

Deep inside of me keep telling me to give up...

Run...please run...

Never turn back...

Leave what ever you had...

I'm not happy...

Feeling anxious of everything..

Nothing seems to help...

Stop talking to me...

Let me tell you one last thing...

I'm not happy...

Toxic life

When things happen out of my control and became messy than before, I wish I was lying on bed in hospital for few weeks.

I want that sickness. I hate those people. They should not be in contact with me.

Roller coaster

I have to admit that my emotions always like a roller coaster rides.

Sometimes I felt like moving forward with my life.

Some other times, I just want to stop everything. I want to run to place far from here.

Sometimes I want to be at artic. I want to live my life there.

Sometimes I don't feel a thing. And I want to keep it that way.

Limitation

I'm feeling good lately.

I hope this feeling last longer.

I just hope my heart can stand it till end of this month.

I'll think what next by next month.

I'm taking everything slow now.

Trying to keep everything in my own pace and speed.

Hopefully no one get injured by this.

I screamed for help but no one there

I had depression.

The moment I'm writing this is the hardest moment for me to cope with my daily life.

I had no one to talk too.

I had no one to trust.

Last night I dream of suicidal.

I know its not a good thing.

It just I can't deal with other options.

The burden is too much.

The pressure is unbearable.

Everyday I refused to wake up.

Starting the day is hard for me.

I need help.

But no one there is ready to listen.

Everyone busy talking.

I'm tired. Just really...really tired.