Breaking down

Last October...i had a multiple breakdown.

I feel worst about myself.

I want to cry but I keep holding it inside.

I keep pushing myself doing stuff that not part of my interest anymore.

I felt horrendous.

I loss that passions towards my work.

But I'm getting better as I chose to ignore that feeling.

Its unhealthy but I need to face it.

Now its 2019. More challenges to come.

I wishes for God to ease my pain.

Its happen again

I skipped my work today.
I'm telling them I on medical leave.
I was so depressed till I felt like hurting myself.
I kept thinking of suicidal but I can't do it.
I thinking of hurting my self and taking some pills this morning.
I need to resign asap before this thought getting worst.
God please help me.

Let me go

I'm tired of living right now.

I want to dead.

I don't want to live.

I feel sick.

I'm not happy at all.

I hate people.