Covid-19

Today marks 5 day of restrictions movement order by our government due to Corona virus. 

5 days of lockdown, strictly stay at home order give you time to relaxed and do some thinking on your part.

When we're were ordered to stay home, I feel happiness as I've been in so much pressure and stress couple of weeks before. 

As a homebody and introvert, being at home is the most anticipated event for me. I can do things I love, watching Netflix and play games.

The cons is as much as I love being at home, not moving gave me some painful experience as I suffered lower back pain again. Being lying on the bed, sitting and all this routine were already bad enough to my body.

Nevertheless, I still happy that I can live without pressure.

If mom still here, I'm for sure that she won't survive with this virus. Remembering her health condition and current situation, I'm just glad that we able to see her go and accompanied her before we sent her go to a better places. 

May God protect us all from this virus and help us recover from this event.

sleeping pills

I already purchased it.

I feel like cutting my chest and try to calm down.

I hate myself.

I hate for feeling this way.

I hate everything.

I hate everything.

I hate everything.

I screamed.

I'm dying.

Decision

I've been seriously thinking to purchase some sleeping pills.

I feel like the anxiety has taken over me again.

I cannot stop thinking and keep worrying the same thing.

I can't do anything.

Everything stop.

I can't move forward with my work.

I got some mental block.

My heart is in pain.

I feel like dying.

I don't wanna be in this line anymore.

I wanna stop thinking about everything.

I want my mind and my heart to rest.

I'm tired.

I really do.

I wish someone will listen to me.